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*pulls hair out* Tuesday, May 16, 2006 @ 12:14 a.m.

Can't find diary. Don't want to rant to Audrey... so here I am...at a journal, I haven't used for awhile. (I'm actually surprised I remembered the password...) I'm really annoyed with Thanh right now. Maybe it was just my own mood, but it was like every little thing she did drove me up the wall.

- Got into the car and she started making this whiny sound in the car about how hot it was. Couldn't stand it anymore so started taking her socks and shoes off in the car. That didn't bother me, but she was acting all hot tempered and aggravated.
- Found out Kev was going to London for a conference and BING! Thanh decides she's going too. It's not so bad now, now that Kev might be able to split his first class ticket into two tickets...but she was so worried about money before and now she's planning a trip to Europe. School was so important to her, but she's willing to miss some of the last classes in her spring course. Initially, it would have been the equivalent of two weeks worth of classes and then planned it so that she would only miss one class and hey! Ali's going so she can take the notes for her and to make sure Ali can take notes for her, she'll plan the trip so that she can go before Ali leaves. I don't know why I was getting annoyed with this.. maybe because I was already in a crabby mood. I should be excited for them...but just couldn't bring myself to be. You know what? Just read through this again...I AM being unreasonable.
- Complained about the traffic and how could I have ever even thought of suggesting to take Bow Trail. Asked her if she wanted to go through the university at the back, she said yes, and moved two lanes over to go to Brentwood another way... only to be aggravated by the heat again while waiting at the red lights.
- Class turned out to be alright, and it wasn't until afterwards that I got annoyed again. We were waiting for Kevin to pick us up, she forgot to send herself a GUI she had been working on for the past few days...so I decided to show her my websites.. I told her, well, I used some anime pictures, OH, well, then, she didn't want to see it. Got up and walked away. She hates anime. I hate monkeys but if she fuckin' made a website with pictures of monkeys on it, I would still look at it.

I dunno...I'm getting annoyed over simple things. I'm either getting uncomfortable with being a third wheel, or I'm getting completely annoyed with her. I'm not too sure why. It does occur every once in awhile. We hang out too much and we're just driving each other up the wall. I don't like how she treats people. It's great that she can speak her mind...but couldn't she do it in a better manner. It's just so...so so mean. I mean, she can get really bitchy at people. I don't know how anyone can be that way. Trying to calm her down would have the opposite effect.

BAH!! Don't care. This happens once every two months...I don't think I'm going to hang out with her for awhile. Need to step away. Will also need to confront her about these issues some day. Just stand up instead of walking away.

RANDOM VENTING from LiveJournal Friday, March 25, 2005 @ 02:18 p.m.

Man, it was stressful today, and let's just face it: Today sucked. I don't want to go into details...but it all started with the bad traffic, and it just went downhill from there. I've never been in so much high demand in my life. People calling me. Me having to be somewhere. Trying to get from client to client on time and not ignore them. It was...fun. And at the end of the day...a computer went BOOM! on me. Honestly, I rebooted the computer and bam! it won't start anymore. What do I find out? Freaking hard drive is failing AGAIN. I swear, Dell has been killing me with all these cheap hard drives. I've replaced at least 3 this week. It's crazy.

Actually, life has not been so fun in general. I mean, I do have fun, but parents are going nuts on me...particularly the paternal one. He's being an ass, and by ass, I mean complete, undeniable ass-ishness coming from him. I don't even want to go into details with this either. I've limited communication between him and I, and I'm doing my own form of rebelling.

Also, people have been driving me nuts with my 'happiness'. Are you happy, Ali? How's work been lately? What do you mean by 'OK'? Lately, I've been doing this whole evaluation of my life. ...this is mostly from said people. I mean, I can honestly say that most of the people I care about have asked me at one point or another if I am happy with my job. I love them all but... I whine. I complain. I bitch and moan. It's part of my very being. (That's why I'm so loveable. :P) This does not mean that I am unhappy. It just means that I deal with bitchy/grumpy people more and I don't get paid enough (not enough at all), which let's face it...is something I can't escape. I love venting... I can't help it. If I need to get something off my chest, then I will. One thing that I've also noticed in re: job is that people seem to look down on it...or at least, that's how I feel. Yes, I could be an engineer. Yes, I could be testing software....or even developing it...though, I believe, at that point, I would be throwing myself out the window. I made a choice to get more familiar with computers and networks. I stand by that choice. I may be a computer engineer in training, but that doesn't mean I know lots about computer. The truth? The truth is that I know how to use a computer...and that's about it. I don't know how to build one. I barely knew how to set up a network. I just never had the resources to do this sort of stuff and now I do. I feel sorry for the poor soul who has to be the client when I try it for the first time, but ah well...what can you do. *lol* Future? Who the hell knows. That's the only thing that unnerves me. I want to try everything. I do want to try my hand at engineering at some point...but it won't be the end of the world if I try in a couple of years. I'm young.

ah, yesss...random venting. *grins*

bwa ha ha.... Friday, May 21, 2004 @ 02:42 p.m.

doing a little bit of editting in my entries. ^^;;;

Thursday, April 15, 2004 @ 08:38 p.m.

THANH'S A FUCKIN' BITCH! She keeps on telling me to 'chill out' but it pisses me off so bad. I told her it pisses me off and one day, she just kept on goading(?) me with it. She fuckin' doesn't know how to draw the line. It's so stupid. She did it again to me today. She's so fuckin' immature sometimes. Let's push my buttons further. See what happens. Stupid idiot...

ergo... Tuesday, February 3, 2004 @ 12:10 a.m.

lost? I have absolutely no idea what you're talking about... *stands in front of mysteriously, fake-looking bookcase*

actually...seriously...think you need to boost my memory on that one... *cough*

ha ha... Wednesday, November 19, 2003 @ 01:57 p.m.

almost replied '*barf*' to Patty's KK list. >_< That took some will power not to reply to this one. ha ha... hmmm...maybe I will eventually. It's still in my inbox...it'll just have to take some....wittiness.

D'oh! didn't see previous entry... Wednesday, November 19, 2003 @ 12:55 a.m.

Jordan said he was supposed to call? Dammit! I suppose he knows now too. *throttles Ernest* IT WAS PRIVATE! DAMMIT! PRIVATE! (BTW, Thanh commends us on our 'intelligence' in putting up our journals on the net. She didn't really put it that way [basically....*shakes head* oh my god...smart guys. Smart...]...which is actually true, tho.) But ahhhh....I love venting in this. No inhibitions needed here. ^^

Oh yeah...actually, Barnie (^^;;) has been really good lately. I think he took the hint because on MSN he asked Thanh if she was mad at her. She replied like so, "Of course not...bye, gotta go eat dinner". ha ha... but it's true. He took the hint. Maybe even no more self inviting anymore. Phil took a hint too...except he can't look me in the eye. heh heh... Actually feel guilty but feel relieved that I don't have to be on edge when I eat. Stupid Phil...

ha ha... call then shower? no... shower then call? no wait... funny Auj. Anyways, yeah...lessee...Johnson's concentrating now, eh. CRAZY...I say he's bluffing. Stick me in goal...he tends to miss...maybe b/c I suck so much he lets his guard down. (*pause* Excellent... I have no problems with that.)

D'oh! Friday, November 14, 2003 @ 12:21 a.m.

Now angry at Rosehart. *grumble, grumble*

ahhhh... Friday, November 14, 2003 @ 12:14 a.m.

I am feeling much more calm now. It is ALL good. Why? Well...cause of Neopets. *lmao* I was just playing the games and by the end of it, I had calmed down. Still not impressed with Patty right now. But it's all good.

Ohhh and did I mention? Dr. Rosehart's an ass. He had to 'reschedule' the groups because some of the groups didn't sign up. He then BUMPED our group's presentation up 5 days when we specifically talked to Dr. Fapojuwo and signed up early. Why the hell do we get rescheduled when we're not the stupid dumbasses who didn't sign up in the first place. Such a jerk.

ha ha... Thursday, November 13, 2003 @ 11:20 a.m.

It was funny cause when I read that birthday e-mail I felt a lot of hostility from it. Must have been the bolds. *lol* AND as I pointed out, you signed it your full first name...which I don't think I've ever see you do in an e-mail to us. The e-mail was scary....my first instinct was to cower....or maybe it was to beat the computer up, I dunno. *lol*

Anyways, MUST. DO. WORK... I will hopefully write a full reply soon.

*pause*

DAMN YOU BERT! Feel like no one is safe from someone nosing around. Will have to revert back to silly petnames. We could make...P...a name...though...I wouldn't know what. P seems to be decent enough.

Grarrr... *lol* Wednesday, November 12, 2003 @ 03:06 p.m.

Man, I like the name. It's awesome!

Yeah, I'll be whining on the phone hopefully pretty soon so I'll tell you all about my wonder Boun experiences. He's just creeping me out, you know? Like, you know when Jason and Albert tickle me, out of the corner of my eye this one time, I could see him lean forward with his finger extended to tickle me. It was creepy cause he was doing it so discretely. Honestly, he's crossing a line I didn't think exist but I'm having some serious boundary issues with this guy.

Thanh's word to describe him is pretty much pathetic. Mine is creepy. Scary AND weird, I'm telling you. You know how I said I would be oblivious well...*cough* that went to hell...everytime he's in the room, I try to avoid all eye contact just in case he comes over. (I know, that sounds really bitchy but it's true.) My first instinct is to run away. It's been effective in my experience. ^^

For Auj Podge Sunday, November 9, 2003 @ 04:48 p.m.

Thought you might want this, just in case. Your missing entries:

marjul.html
septnov.html

| Saturday, October 11, 2003 || 05:47 p.m. | i had a fairly boring day today. heheh... watched down with love, deliver us from eva, making of bend it like beckham... lots of movies.

johnson coming over for thanksgiving dinner... will go to his place for dinner on monday.... yeah... that's my update. heheh...

the 2 midterms i had yesterday went alright. i think i did better on the first one, considering i spent most of my time studying for that one (99%). so yeah.. should learn to manage my time better. haha.. yeah right. *cough*

anyway, later ... will tell you how kill bill is later.

Ali's missing entry. *lol* Sunday, November 9, 2003 @ 04:46 p.m.

ha ha... Saturday, October 11, 2003 @ 05:23 p.m. found out a friend might be reading this SOOOOO...will just delete them all. *lmao* *falls over*

*grumble, grumble* Sunday, November 9, 2003 @ 04:42 p.m.

Man...I'm paranoid to go to school right now. ...tho, I suppose I should try your approach and pretend to be oblivious because most of me still thinks he's just being extra friendly and I'm interpreting everything the wrong way. Unfortunately, it'll still be oblivious with a dash of avoidance and caution. *lol*

I dunno...I think what upsets me is that I don't understand why...if he does like me. The truth of the matter is that I haven't done ANYTHING. I've barely talked to the guy. I don't even know the guy. That's basically the reason why I don't like him that way. I don't know him at all and the fact that I barely know him and still manages to be a little annoying to me says alot. It's not his fault, of course...but yeah, it's probably the fact that he goes out of his way to please ppl. but it's totally creeping me out.

Let me recap you on what happened yesterday. Boun...was actually not officially invited to sushi...tho, I think Jason (being well...Jason. Stupid Jason being nice... ha ha...) invited him, but Thanh, on Friday, told me that Boun wasn't coming to sushi. He was there when we were talking about it but Thanh didn't invite him and she wanted to tell me that so I didn't bring it up or ask if he was going when he was around. So imagine my surprise when he picks Jason, Albert and Thanh up to go for sushi. It was the weirdest thing...and I really wanted to find out what happened today but...I don't think Thanh and I will be working today. It's 4:30 and she still hasn't called and so ...I think I'll stop bumming around and start doing some work on my own. What annoyed me further was someone told Boun that I had a big screen TV and so he wanted to invite himself (and everyone else) over to my house. Look, you guys are not going to my house for Finding Nemo. I'm watching it with other people. No offense, but I've already made plans and since I'm flat out saying no, I don't think you should press the issue any further. THEN, I was going to complain about the whole thing to you...and semi-cautiously around Johnson (that went to hell, btw. ^^ Tell Johnson, I'm sorry if I'm making him uncomfortable with my whole expression of annoyance for him [Boun] last night.) Of course, THAT went to hell too since he invited himself over to your house. Thank god for you and Niki, tho. Life savers you are. The whole 'switching seats' thing made my eyes bulge out of my sockets but good ol' (and probably too lazy to move [*lmao*] Niki stayed where she was, and intentionally or not, you put an extra 2 ppl (and a really fat stuffed animal) in between as well. WOO HOO! Well...done with my rant. I shall notify you as soon as I find a reason to e-mail...which I don't have right now. *falls over*

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D'oh...I just realized that frickin' pitas lost my last couple of entries and actions. You know...where I actually archived the whole damn thing. So upset now. mimimimi.... where did my lost entries go? where?